Too long

It's been a long time since I was here. The countdown to my trip to RI for my procedure is on, down to just ten more days. I am so anxious. Scared to death sometimes. I just want it over. I hope it does something for me, I want to do it, dont' get my wrong, but I am terrified of the procedure itself.

I'm so tired, all the time. i'd love to get rid of that and sleep like a normal person at night. I am tired all the time and can't sleep at night. Such a pain! More energy and way less pain would be SO NICE. maybe it will happen for me, who knows.

tomorrow is Sunday and i am not ready. Guess i should get into bed. I need to come here and pour my heart out soon. I need some release. I need a heart deep friend who doesn't pick and choose when to talk and when not to.

for now... goodnight!